Came across CCX's blog and found out that Benjamin is going Tekong today, ( Mon). I knew that he is gg in april but didnt expect it to be so fast especially when we haven reconciled. I miss him man. Seriously I do. Woke up 3 am in e wee hours and started crying like mad. Kelly keep telling mi that I am crazy, and I am being EMO again. I am just sad. I used to be his very very gd soulmates that NO ONE can replaced but now.. things took a 360 degrees turn. He used to tell mi many of his deep secrets and he always bought mi supper and came to my hse to accompany mi,sitting dwn toking craps. But now? It has been donkey years since he last came. I can still rmb-ed that I told him b4. "Our frenship will surely fade away after U enter NS." He replied firmly and tell mi that HE WUN. He said that we can always mit up when he is out of camp. Further mre we lived so near sure will always keep in contact de. I guessed he just forgot wad he promised. We ALREADY lost contact b4 he went in for NS. After crying for I think 15 mins. I went back to slp. But I just cant slp animre. Not sure of the main reason too. I just cant get to slp. My insomnia last till 12 pm in the morning and I called Mac for Big breakfast and I took a few nimble and went to cuddle in my parent's bed. Thks GOD. I finally got some rest. Benjamin didnt update his blog ever since we last contact. He just left his blog to rot wif maggots. Wondering if he went hiatus was due to he dunwan to let mi noe how was he doing. Till now, I still dunno if he can get a place in Uni anot.. wad a failure. I hope he will come back to mi soon and regain our friendship like b4.. but I guess that I was just putting on a false hope. I sent him a farewell msg ytd but he didnt replied too. ='( Maybe he got enuff of my nonsenses.. perhaps..